Something was seriously out of alignment, and I knew it.
All the signs were there. My throat started to feel swollen and scratchy. I couldn’t focus or complete complex tasks, and the weighted feeling of overwhelm clung to me like a suffocating Eeyore-like cloud. So many moving parts; so little time. Blah, blah, blah.
“Here I am again,” I thought.
“I’m a mess.
I can’t get it together.
I’m going to F it up.
She always has it together.”
Running the same sob story mix tape of my story-telling days about who I am and what I’m capable of.
“What should I do? Why does this feel so hard? Where is the energy leak?” I asked myself. (Literally. To myself.)
And then the answer I heard, “Let it be EASY.”
“What feels so hard about this? What would make this NOT SO HARD?” I asked myself next.
And then, the TOTALLY OBVIOUS ANSWER right there in front of me.
A simple scheduling switch. Pushing something back a few weeks – changing my mental state entirely and affecting the quality of said product not at all.
If it feels like you’re pushing a boulder up a mountain, then you probably are.
I’d like to invite you to pause. Reconsider your rigid life choices. Find another way up. Perhaps a curvier path with a not-so-steep incline? Or, shit, just skip on down and explore a new destination entirely!
I don’t know. Just an idea. From my hard-learned earth lessons to your bursting inbox.